Blogging from my desk - taking boredom to a new level!

Well the week got off to a fantastic start! All day Monday I was invigorated to get started and being well behaved and strict with myself. It last all the while I was at work and through a limited dinner but then. Hell, but then. I binged, and boy did I binge. And I tried to purge but I have never been very good at mastering the purge so I really just heaved for a long while and then gave up and cried. At least the crying burned some calories.

I regained myself and moved on to Tuesday and that was a good day start to finish, I should have probably eaten a bit less and done a bit more of a run but on the whole it could have been worse.

Now its Wednesday and 215 calories so far and its almost 4pm. Here lies the problem. I bake in my spare (not that there is a lot of it) time and people order things from me. I have a cake and cookie order for Sunday and I need to bake the sugar cookies tonight, which A takes a lot of time which limits my gym time and B, I loves me a sugar cookie. I will literally be rolling out my temptation and cutting it with cookie cutters. Damn. I have to be strong.

Oh and for the record? 121.8

Thursday -

Yesterday was a good day. I was in control. And for some unknown reason I was left be. I skipped lunch as usual, having a tall non-fat latte for 80 calories and then I skipped dinner. Which for some reason my husband seemed ok with; I guess he assumed it wasn’t worth the fight. I had a couple of those rice crackers and some salsa for probably another 80 calories or so and then a couple of apples during the day and a hadnful of goldfish crackers.

I have to eat breakfast at the moment in order to be able to take my med for my wrist. 1/4 cup granola and 1% milk.

Husband is working late tonight so he won't be around to watch me not eat dinner. Although having him around helps because he reminds me that I actually don’t need that slice of pie with fro-yo that I am desperately craving.

Kids drove me crazy with their combined destruction and I managed to melt yet another cutting board on the stove top by turning on the wrong burner. Such a loser!

It's been a whole month?

So I decide to take a certain route and then all hell breaks loose. My laptop isn’t really *my* laptop. It’s my work laptop and after I decided to start this blog and be motivated and in control, I completely lost control as my boss decided she wanted my laptop back.

It is now back in my possession and I am determined to get this thing back on track.

Today is day 1 - it seems fitting. Today is the first day back at school and I am taking a vacation day. No one around me, I plan on getting in some serious "me time". I already walked to the school and back, did some workout DVD time (although, I can’t do the Jillian Michaels burpees as I have a wrist injury, huff huff) and I am going to go to the gym later today. There is no one here to watch me so no one here to judge me when I skip lunch.

That will take a lot of will power today and I am hungry. I am telling myself that, that is a good thing. I should be hungry. I was far to lax about what I have eaten over the last week. I couldn’t even bring myself to weigh in this morning, I am a 31 year old woman and I am scared of my scale.

Tomorrow. I will weigh in tomorrow. When i started this blog 1 month ago I was 127, the last time I checked, I was around 121 but recently my low weight was 119.

What can I do about the jelly belly though? That doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. Any suggestions are most welcome